Happy Thanksgiving!

Hello everyone,

Yes I am still here lol. I have considered writing on here many times but something always comes up as you know. I have listened to the birds singing and the sun beaming through my window and enter to my soul.

I have been trying to find that which was lost in me. But now I find it may not have been lost, rather self has changed and is reinventing, very slowly with an understanding. What I perceived as long dark silences, I now see as time of discovery. I was going out a lot and enjoying my freedom with my friends in the form of dancing and drinking. Now I am more content to be home and just to be.

I still worry about being alone and facing the daily challenges that come along, but I face them one at a time the best way I can. I have dated for a while and with a few people but either friendship or aquintances. I am still talking to people and will still go out but now I am more content to experience this time for now.

I will say one I am talking to has caught my interest, but for now we are just getting to know each other, and it is to soon to know yet.

I wanted to wish all a Happy Thanksgiving and I am anxiously waiting the wonderful meal my mom is making.

Take care everyone,
Pixies:)

Doing well

Hello everyone,

I am doing very good now, I have my place cleaned up and comfortable now. You will begin to see my maiden name appear now on some of my post as I eventually want to go back to using it. Ann Kelly/Gallant, soon to be Ann Kelly.

This morning a strong sense of writing came to me so I have put my thoughts into words. I am adding them for you to read and I hope enjoy, I do believe an awakening of sorts is now happening for me, and I would like to share that with you.

Enjoy my friends,
Pixie:)

7/10/2008
Dawn of Awaking

It is the dawn of my awakening,
All senses tinkle with anticipation
Some good some bad, for people’s thoughts can be so sad.

They await that which they do not understand,
and wish unhappy things to their fellow man
But on the dawning of all things there is more to what the meaning of life brings

We glimpse such a small part of true reality of our being
Complicated but yet simple in our structure of life
Insight is there to be held,
But only by those who know of the true spirituality realm

In this realm things are true and waiting,
Patients of evolution created by the one
For only he knows of the grand scheme
Imagine the horror in which he has seen

Within the sin a true heart may exists,
Covered by pain by a life without bliss
Only true understanding can bring it forth
For he is waiting and is our source

So be thee aware of what lies beyond the human eye
For we are exactly alike you and I
The difference is beneath the exterior shell
And the one perfect one knows each of us well

Ann Kelly/Gallant

Calm

Hello everyone,

Things are still good here, I now have my place clean and tidy. It is so nice to wake in familiar settings. I am feeling happy and content now, but I also know things are still unsettled. I am working on having things finished and final, I will never look back once I have moved on and forward in my life.

I am sure things will not be coming up roses, but at least I will be walking my own path, and decide which direction I wish to take when I meet an intersection. I do find time starting to get long now that a lot of the work is done, but this will improve when I return to work. I have taken some vacation time to adjust to my surroundings again, and give my mind some much needed rest.

I was feeling creative today and wrote another poem, and I am going to share it with all of you who read my Blog. If you copy it or share it please leave my name attached to it, I would appreciate that. I hope you enjoy my mind and its thoughts about the night time, always fun creating something new.

Until next time,
Pixies:)

Present of Night

The light has faded leaving the way,
For darkness to come and evil to play

The creaks and the sounds send shivers through all
While the darkness waits and slivers in the halls

Through fear and misdeed it will have its way,
Leaving horror in its own wake until darkness fades

When the light approaches, evil then has fear
The warmth and love will soon appear

The shivers then belong to all who dwell in the dark
The light will fill all with its pure love of heart

So in the darkness we must abide
But the light will soon come and be by our side

Then the evil and darkness will have to run
But will always return with the setting of the sun.

Ann Kelly/Gallant June 28, 2008

Changes

Hello everyone,

Wow talk about changes that have come since my last post. I am back in my home again...yes I am, and legally! What a mess I had to clean here, it was terrible. But now it is shinny and clean again and looking more like home than it ever did! For the first time in a year I am truly happy. Now once the paper work is done and divorce papers signed I will be as happy as anyone dare be lol

I want to thank my best friend Kelly for her support though all my troubles. Without her help I am sure things would have turned out much worse than anyone would have thought. She is my family in the best sense of the word. Her life has improved too and she is on a journey of education, and self exploration.

My family has helped me a lot in getting settled in here and to get things working again. Most things are in need of repair, but that is minor for now. My ex did a lot of damage to my personal belongings, but he will pay for that through the courts. So I am happy to say things are much better.

That doesn't mean it is over yet, this I am sure of. The first night I was here my ex showed up and tried to force his way in. The police said because his lawyer didn't contact him and tell him I was here, so they wouldn't charge him, even though he broke the screen door handle. But he will pay for that to through the court and it will come out of his share once again.

But for now I am happy and content, and to me he doesn't exists any more, and even without the papers, I am now a free spirit who feels at home and at peace. I wish this peace will surround all who have read my story. One day I will fill in all the information I have left out on purpose until this is completely over. I can tell you, it will be a good read for sure, as long as you are not the one living it.

Good night my friends, God bless
Pixie:)

Dating Again

Hello everyone,



I have finally decided it is time to start dating again. I have meet some very interesting people and enjoyed meeting them. No one in particular yet, but at least now I know I am ready to look. I think I was waiting until everything was settled with my ex, seems that may be a while yet, so I am moving on. I am planing action that will hopefully end this complicated issue over the land. That is what is holding everything up. I want my freedom and everything settle by summers end and I am going to make that happen. But in the mean time, if Mr. Right walks around the corner...I am certainly going to say hello to him, lol.

Until next time,
Pixie:)

Happy Mothers Day

I would like to wish all mother's a very Happy mothers day. I am not a mom, but I do know the hard work and dedication it takes to be a good caring mom. So for you I write this poem of thanks from all the children of the world:)

Mothers

For all the times you said no when needed,
even though at the time we felt it wrong and pleaded.

For all the times we made you sit up,
when your young you don't realize this stuff.

For all the band aids and tears you wiped,
for changing all those diapers that was not so nice.

For pushing us to study for a better life than some had...
you are our mother and for that we are grateful and glad.

Thank you, for all you do:)
Pixie:)

Poem

Hello everyone,

I am still here and about, nothing much has changed in my circumstances. But I have figured out that I am ready to start looking for a possible friend shall I say lol. No, I have not found anyone yet but I have meet some interesting people and realized that I will not loose anything but looking, and will gain some friends by doing so. A new friend has inspired me to write a poem, and I am going to share it with all of you. I hope you enjoy it and maybe find a little inspiration within it.

May 3, 08

Stormy Dreams

Across a barren sea, wave lash out at all that be,
Rougher waters on the way,
hold on tight the fierce winds do say.

Once the storm unleashes and ends its fury,
the water returns to a beauty in glory.

A dangerous journey we all must face,
different circumstance, decide each ones fate.

Some will give way to grief,
to much of a burden for them to meet.

Others will triumph and make their way,
to a happier place and sail away.

To the island of dreams so clear, tropical and true,
Were only happiness waits for you.

So set your course as best you can,
victory will be given by destiny as designed and planned.

Ann Gallant

Take care until next time,
Pixies:)