Happy Mothers Day

I would like to wish all mother's a very Happy mothers day. I am not a mom, but I do know the hard work and dedication it takes to be a good caring mom. So for you I write this poem of thanks from all the children of the world:)

Mothers

For all the times you said no when needed,
even though at the time we felt it wrong and pleaded.

For all the times we made you sit up,
when your young you don't realize this stuff.

For all the band aids and tears you wiped,
for changing all those diapers that was not so nice.

For pushing us to study for a better life than some had...
you are our mother and for that we are grateful and glad.

Thank you, for all you do:)
Pixie:)

Poem

Hello everyone,

I am still here and about, nothing much has changed in my circumstances. But I have figured out that I am ready to start looking for a possible friend shall I say lol. No, I have not found anyone yet but I have meet some interesting people and realized that I will not loose anything but looking, and will gain some friends by doing so. A new friend has inspired me to write a poem, and I am going to share it with all of you. I hope you enjoy it and maybe find a little inspiration within it.

May 3, 08

Stormy Dreams

Across a barren sea, wave lash out at all that be,
Rougher waters on the way,
hold on tight the fierce winds do say.

Once the storm unleashes and ends its fury,
the water returns to a beauty in glory.

A dangerous journey we all must face,
different circumstance, decide each ones fate.

Some will give way to grief,
to much of a burden for them to meet.

Others will triumph and make their way,
to a happier place and sail away.

To the island of dreams so clear, tropical and true,
Were only happiness waits for you.

So set your course as best you can,
victory will be given by destiny as designed and planned.

Ann Gallant

Take care until next time,
Pixies:)

Just checking in

Hello,

I am not sure anyone still checks my page, but just encase anyone does I will drop a note, and say hi. Things are still in limbo, but I do believe they are about to move. It is very hard to try and be optimistic when everything stays at a stand still for long periods of time.

Yesterday as I sat at my computer and stared out the window, I almost came on and wrote a post. I watched the billions and billions of snow flakes slowly fallen on an existing blanket of white. I contemplated those flakes, and as I did so, those flakes became all the misery in the world...it seemed like so much pain was falling it was unmeasurable in size and emotion.

This realization reminded me I am not alone in my unhappiness, so many have different pains and struggles they must also deal with. And as I watched and contemplated more I also noticed something else. As these never ending flakes fell, the sun would peak out for a brief time, and melt some of the fallen flakes. Once the sun disappeared more flakes covered those that had vanished.

Again I thought about this process, and concluded, that someones pain was just melted away. Lots more will experience the pain, but some will find relief as the pain moves on in turn. The brief melting is what will get us through our storms of confusion. Some how this little story will hopefully help someone out there who needs to see those snow flakes for what they are. That person will then understand what will happen when the sun shines, and melts those same worries away. More worries will come later, nothing we do can stop that, but when the sun melts the present, at least then we might get a slight glimpse of a possible future.

Until next time friends,
Pixies:)

Still here

Hello everyone,

Just wanted to leave a quick note to let you know I am still here.
I am just waiting for the world to stop spinning so fast so I can steady myself.
I am sure it will all end soon...at least I hope...7 months and still waitng for good luck and peace of mind!

Time will take its time,
Pixies

Changes

Hello again,

Well I guess some of you might have been waiting for some of the writing I talked about in my last post...well things happen. It would seem the calm is over again for a while.

Lots of things have come up in all area of my like making it impossible for the creativity to come forth. How long this one will last is anyone's guess, we will just have to wait and see what happens. Until things get a little better I won't be writing much.

Until then,
Pixie

Changes

Hello again,

I had such a good day yesterday I want to share it with you. My best friend Kelly and me had all day together yesterday. We met for lunch, and a good friend joined us. We had a good time with our friend, and had a wonderfully unrealistic conversation...it was good. Then we did a little shopping, and met a new friend, we laughed as hard with him as we did earlier.

Then we were invited to another friends for supper...and a couple of beer;) It was a wonderful meal, and a very good conversation. She was a good hostess, and her place is very nice.
Then we went to Karaoke around 9, I don't get up and sing....I wouldn't do that to people! Ha ha It was a good time, I didn't arrive home until 2:30 this morning....hence why I am still setting at my computer trying to clear my thoughts a bit.

I am finally enjoying myself. It took a long time, and although I still have very bad days, I also have some very good days. I know some of you are still struggling...believe that very slowly, good change will come...I won't tell you it will stay because it doesn't. However; if the good times come more and more....then we will be sad less and less:)

I have also noticed another change in me lately, I seem to have become a very somber and serious person. I now sense a movement in the completely opposite direction, I now seem to have the need to create, to let what I feel release from within me. Only those who feel these rushes of creativity will understand the need to express them. For me it has come in the form of writing a very romantic continuously changing story.

I will probably shock a lot of you by saying that...because my life has been so serious...and yes even life threatening by time...I do believe I need to experience this. Do I intend to write a book...not now, maybe one day. The reason I tell all of you this, is because I am going to change some of my writing habits from being so life serious, to the creation that seem to be emanating from within me.

I am sure by now most of you are confused by my meaning. I will give you a few examples of the strong focus coming from within me, this just came out into a conversation one day...surprised me as well as those I was with. But they have increased in frequency, and I am now enjoying them. While talking one day, I said without knowing I was going to:

"My soul cried to be free, so I grew wings to accommodate its wishes"...to say it felt profound is putting it mildly!
Now they are more in a poetic and romantic form.
Such as:

"May the milky way find and nourish you with silky pleasure"
"Is our journey to pass as fiery comets in the night sky...silently blazing separate paths? "
"Slowly lay your head on the softest cloud in heaven, and I will cover you with protection and comfort..."

Ok, I think I have shocked some of you enough for now. But I will be letting this new creativity have a voice. Some might like it...others won't.
You must decide if you want to follow me on this different journey.
How long will it last...I don't know. It may leave as quickly as it came.....or maybe it is a new beginning...or part of me.

Have a good day my friends,
Pixie:)

Dance

Hello,

I went to a dance last night with my friends, it was different to say the least. I have promised myself I would do different things now that I am single. I don't remember the name of the band, but they played Jazz, Swing, and Blue's, as I said it was different for me.

I like easy listening and light rock. It was very nice to see people dancing in a way I haven't seen except for on T.V. Some of them had such good rhythm, and experience from years of practice together. They glided across the floor as if the wind carried them into a gentle breath of time and music.

They held each other with a respect that is not seen in today's dance mix. I do believe I would like to learn the skill of ballroom dancing, who knows...maybe one day it will be me gliding my way across a dance floor staring contently into a handsome mans eyes....but that I noticed is a must for a good dance, not just practised moves, but a caring, that seems to flow with the couple as they go.

Yes this is a different observation than my last post, but that is the point of observing different things. To come to, and change ones point of view...is that not what makes us grow as a people, and more important, an individual?

Peaceful dreams friends,
Pixie