Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Understanding

Hello everyone,

No matter how old we are we are always learning lessons in life, recently I have learned a big one when it concerns friends. I always try to be there and help people in any way I can when they are going through a rough time in their life. Sometime just having someone to listen and understand is all we need, but sometimes that is not the case.

I just recently learned that in some cases it enables people to keep holding on and not deal with their issues because they keep giving their problems too you. One thing I know is we may not be responsible for what happens too us, but we are responsible in how we handle it... or in some cases do not deal with and accept it.

Only we can help ourselves in those steps forward, our family and friends can stand beside us but we must take the steps of free will. Staying in a bad situation and repeating the same mistakes over and over again only proves we have not moved forward.

Unfortunately people and the world do not wait forever for this too happen. After all the misery I went through it took me 2 years to completely move forward, but I made my first steps after a year to rid myself of as much of my problems as possible. I did seek the help of a professional in the terms of online counseling when I needed it.

This story is not about me but it is about many others out there who can not get past the pain and suffering they are enduring. I can only urge those of you have have not moved forward to seek the correct help. I can be a friend and I can listen but I can not change your life... only YOU can do that. Reach inside of yourself and look very hard, you will find the strength and the light to carry you forward.

Many tell me they can not take it anymore and have tried too end their life... I am very sorry to hear that, this is a desperate call for help... find that help... do not give up. If this is your test in life turn and face it head on... fight it talk about it and reach for those professional hands that are out there waiting to help you. I wish you God's speed in this help...

Understand I am not a therapist, I am merely a simple person with problems just like everyone else. My purpose is to let you know you are not alone in these problems we all face in different ways... Stop waiting for the help to find you... go out and find it and begin your healing and find your hope.... help is out there for those who look. A miracle no, a long slow path to recovering who you are or want to be YES.

For all who need to hear it...YOU ARE NOT ALONE

Until next time,
Pixies

Friday, December 30, 2011

2012

Hello everyone,

A new year is almost upon us, I wish you all a good and wonderful beginning in every aspects of your life. I have given a lot of thought to this year, so many changes and so many things remain the same. I have made some wonderful friends, as well as learned some painful truths. But the lessons of life must be learned and I believed shared so all know it happens to others and not just them.

I will push through this year and into the next facing forward, reaching out my hand to all who wish to walk with me in this life and into the new beginning of a new year... welcome one and all ...what ever the new year holds lets hold onto each other and greet it whether it is good, bad happy or sad at least we can keep our friends with us to share it all.

Happy New Year my friends and family,
Pixies.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Christmas

I want to take this opportunity to wish you all a safe and Merry Christmas. The true meaning of Christmas is forgiveness as Jesus was born to forgive our sins. So forget the humbugs of Christmas and the fact that many are alone or can not afford to celebrate.

To those who are alone, you still have visitors... we may not know your name but God does and he is always beside you. The poor will inherit more through their humble state as long as the faith and believe of love remains in your heart.

Be blessed my friends and embrace those around you as they are your most precious gift. God be with you and protect you.

Merry CHRISTmas,
Pixies

Sunday, November 6, 2011

November Thoughts

Good morning my friends,

As I look out my window and see a blanket of frost covering my world I know winter is fast approaching. I love to watch the sun touch the frozen entity as it rises to another day, witnessing the steam and crystal effect is unmatched in beauty.

This makes me think of frozen hearts, covered and protected from all that surround it. Recently someone told me I have boarders around my heart, strange thought... but as I considered this maybe they are right.

As humans we live we learn, we laugh we cry, we remember we forget... but the pain of disillusionment never goes away completely. I believe this is our protector of future pains, also a wisdom is obtained in not running, falling and getting no where fast. Eventually we all move on, but do we really ever let the boarders down again?

I have answered this question in my own way, I explained that unless it is the right touch of sunshine, with its warming embrace,and a gentle mist unseen, then yes a blanket of frost will protect and cover our hearts. Equally many have told me they will never allow that sunshine to touch the outer layers of their hearts, I say it is a lesson and caution is needed.

Shadows fall upon everyone, blocking the warmth and the light that fills us with happiness at some point in our life, the trick is to know, to be aware,and not to block the very light that can melt the pain of yesterday, and re-fill the hope of a loving future.

Understanding is not easily given or seen through pain and despair, we all must wait for the gentle touch of life to return after a frozen land in winter. Keep scrapping the frost and it will return, wait for the sun and it will melt and nourish the soul... for even the sun must endure the winter and travel on a different path for a season.

Journey on my friends for the season will change after what will seem a very long winter.

Until next time,
Pixies

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Tested

Hello everyone I hope you are all well.

I am sure many of you as I, feel tested in our daily life. Troubles seem to grow the minute one thing goes wrong, then it seems to be none stop. We take deep breathes curse, and seem to lose what little control we maintain in that moment.

This makes me wonder how, when we factor in our age and how many years and times this happens... we still lose control. We can take a course and learn how to do or create, we can sit silently and contemplate life... we can juggle life, kids, work leisure... and yet we have trouble controlling our basic instincts.

I believe this to be our most basic instinct, look at the animals in nature and even in your own home. Survival, aggression, no tolerance for mistakes or even socializing with others in many species. Pets show this when sometimes you try to take their food or a favorite toy, or when someone enters the house.

It would seem to me as I look for an answer it is simply understood, nature still struggles and we are a species trying to survive in our own created wilderness. I believe if we did not vent by times we would be in a serious buildup mode, that may lead to serious issues in health.

What is my proof? None...

I simply try to analyze and make sense of it in my mind. That makes it easy as I have no need to prove anything to myself, but to spread a possibility is to open the mind and consider life. I share my thoughts to maybe open the mind of another to consider what you see instead of hiding it in a dark dreary place.

Once we let the light of understanding in and then remember; we are human, we are animal, we are nature. Most important...we must except our faults and limitations and move forward in our evolution... maybe we will be the first to end the aggression that comes so easy to a very emotional breed of beings.

I know this entree will make many shake their heads and wonder what in the heck I am talking about ... I am simply putting thoughts into words, and releasing the questions that arise so naturally.

Think, be,understand,for that is to be human.
Pixies

Friday, September 16, 2011

Good morning

Hello and good morning everyone,

I decided to try a morning post for a change to see if I can focus in the morning lol
While walking the other day I was struck by a thought, I have contemplated this thought for some time now.

I marveled at how life works in its mysteries sometimes. It seems while some with little effort or problem go through life happy and carefree untouched by misery. Then I thought of how others take one step forward and then ten back, and I thought how do you justify the laws of nature in this way?

Of course knowing there was no answer I pondered into more thought, and as I did another thought came to me... As we take that one step forward and ten back...in reality we only took nine steps back. And if we take two steps forward, then we only take eight back.... this thought brought some light into a deep dark thought.

If we continue to move forward only to fall back we can still gain ground if we keep moving. The challenge is to remember this rather than giving up, which sometimes would be very easy to do. As far as those who move through life with ease I have another thought.

What if these people suffered beyond anything we can image in a past life, or what if that is to be their next life? We as humans judge so fast and quickly we do not contemplate the why's in life, maybe there is a balance... and maybe we only see one side of that balance.

I believe all things will be equalized as we get closer to understanding the real meaning as to why we were created. Their is a knowledge hidden in all of us, and everyone is like a piece of a puzzle. Without all the pieces coming together to form the picture, it will never be understood...or appreciated for its complexities.

Have a great day my friends,
Pixies

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Interesting happenings

Hello everyone I hope you are all fine, tonight I had the urge to write about a few happening as of late.

As I started to write this blog entree I got a phone call that a friend I grew up with passed away, he is my age and died of a heart attack. My sympathy to his family is great with their loss, and the times ahead.

A few early mornings ago I decided to go sit in the morning sun on my doorstep. As I looked across the land, trees and bushes everything was wet with dew. As the sun shined onto the limbs and blades of grass it was magical in its affects. The drops of water turned to crystal in appearance, as if the sun was turning all it touched into an array of liquid sunshine.

As I beheld this wondrous moment, I decided to grab my camera and take some pictures. When I lifter my camera to take a shot, I noticed something out of the corner of my eye. I lowered the camera and looked, a humming bird came directed in front of my face and looked at me. The little creature jetted back and forth as it studied me,and I even though shocked started to talk to him and proceeded to call him Hummy lol

After a minute the little bird flew away as if satisfied with its curiosity, I can tell you that little bird kept my mind in thought a long time as to the wonders of nature. I sat back down and pondered and realized humans are not the only one with a natural instinct to learn, maybe they too need to overcome their fear.

Tonight was my second interesting happening, as I pulled into my home and stopped my car by my step I noticed a bird flew almost frantic that I was there. It scooted away and almost flew into my home. I sat in my car and let the little creature settle down, and it came back and sat on the doorstep rail and looked at me as I sat in my car. In a low voice I talked to the little bird as I could see it was still frightened.

I was surprised it did not fly away and wondered if it was injured. Slowly I opened my car door and got out of my car, it moved a little further back on the rail but did not fly away. I grabbed my things from the car as I talked to this new friend, as I was about to go up my first step only then did this this bird fly to my roof and watched me again.

I talked to him again for a while and then finally came inside, again my thoughts returned to the humming bird. What a wonder in nature when we least expect it, and I also wondered if the other creatures in nature were growing more curious of us as we invade every part of their world now.

One thing is certain, never stop expecting the unexpected, for as our environment changes for better or worse, all things that live within it, will also change and evolve.

I hope you enjoyed this little story.
Until next time,
Pixies