Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone, this is a season for forgiveness as difficult as that is sometimes. Recently had a something very disappointing happen in my life and hurtful... but forgiveness is divine, we never forget we just move forward. Today it is 12.12.12 and soon it will be the 12th hour also, so many predictions for this month. The only thing I am sure of if something does happen there is nothing we can do about it... if nothing happens the bills still have to be paid lol I am still working from home doing call center work, not easy with my hand as it is a lot more typing than I thought... but again trying to move forward. So much pain and sorrow in life and all around us that we tend to forget everyone is human. The pain we all feel is real and raw and it burns hotter than any volcano ever will, the trick is to stop the flow or at least slow it down by fighting it and facing it rather than trying to run from it... life follows when we run... life pauses when we turn and face it. For all the good and bad in all our lives U and Me are human, except it, deal with it the best you can and remember you... U... are not the only one. God bless you all and may the true meaning, peace and forgiveness find you all. Merry Christmas, Pixies

Hello everyone, Good news finally, I have been working at the call center the last 2 weeks. Today I got a call confirming I have been hired for the at home job I have been trying to get for months!! I am happy and excited to go through this new adventure and see where and how it goes. On a bad note, having major problems with my car, took it to so called professionals who told me it was safe to drive only to find out the back tire could have collapsed at anytime! Yes I have reported it to the better business burro and it is being investigated. Fall is here and this is my favorite time of year, fresh air, less bugs and soon the start of beautiful colored leaves. For once I look forward to it coming as I am becoming more content now in my life. I have accepted that which has happen, the things I can not change, and what I have at the moment. I do hope all who read my blog also find happiness in their life no matter how small it is... enjoy it, celebrate it for life is one big lesson to be learned but never understood. Have a great night, Pixies

Strange orange lights

Hello everyone, I have a strange story to tell you and I swear it is true. I am in Nova Scotia Canada, Lunenburg county, at approximately 9:12 PM I looked out my window and saw 5 or 6 orange balls going through the sky. At first I thought someone was shooting fireworks, but within seconds I knew it wasn't. There was very high thin clouds scattered about but none blocking my view. I watched as these lights appeared to be going towards the upper atmosphere and then disappear... and not behind a cloud. I ran to grab my camera but only got a fading shot of one just before it disappeared. I was amazed and bewildered at what I was seeing, after the lights disappeared I went back inside(I went out back to snap the picture I took). All this happened in a few minuets, so I went to the front door to look out... Out front I saw a shadow crossing by the moon!... it was huge compared to the half moon, and it did not have any lights on it at all that I could see... again I would say it appeared the object was in the upper atmosphere as it appeared as a shadow in the clear sky.I saw this object because of the moon light and because it seemed to be close to the moon. After seeing this object I couldn't help but wonder... could it have been tracer fire I had seen chasing that object only a few minuets before?... I am not sure, I only know it appeared to be that way and I DID want to share this story!! No I am not drinking and I do not do drugs, but there is definitely something going on in this area tonight. I am keeping an eye on the sky but I have not seen anything since this time. This just goes to prove truth really is stranger than fiction! Look up and be amazed, Pixies :)

Moving on

Hello everyone, Well I guess it is time to move forward,and move on into a new job with new experiences. After testing my hand/wrist at work after a year and a half, I was very disappointed that I would not be able to continue with heavy physical use of it. I am starting a new job on Monday Aug. 20th at the call center. I am looking forward to a new challenge and I hope for long term employment. I know what your thinking... and yes I have heard the stories of working there too, but I prefer to try it and judge it for myself. Seems life moves us where we need to be even if not where we want to be. I am amazed how things worked out in my last job... Two of the former residents there were actually known to my Godmother whom I respected very much. This lead to conversations and a closeness of an extended family. Unfortunately all of these wonderful ladies have passed away and the last just after I found out I would not be working there again. It seems to me life went full circle,I strongly believe I was meant to know these other two ladies, and know them as well as my wonderful Godmother. With the circle being complete, it seems so was mine, as I was finished there not by my choice but again by fate. With this insight I do believe I am meant to move on now and start new again... something I should be use to now. I do wonder if all things happen for a reason, what or who is it I will be meant to know on this journey. Only time will answer that question but some things are better not known. As far as my personal life, yes still single. I have dated and met many nice men, just not the match I am looking for. My thought is after a failed 25 year marriage I have lived that part of life, now maybe I will remain single as I will never settle for anything except real, true and honest love. So my friends, again one step at a time, one time for each journey as we never know how far or how long the journey will be. Except it, walk with it, and understand there is always a reason even if we can not figure out the WHY'S of life. Take care, move forward and open your mind to the other possibility in life, Pixies

Sad news

It has been a while since I posted and I do have some updates, I will be updating in the near future of my life changes. For now I respectfully give voice and the written sorrow of a very dear friend(family) member if not by blood then by heart. Gladys Zwicker 1912-2012 Zwicker, Gladys Elisheba - 99, Mahone Bay, formerly of Camperdown, passed away July 27, 2012 in Mahone Nursing Home, Mahone Bay. Born in Camperdown, she was a daughter of the Late Collin and Hattie (Sarty) Naugler. Private Family Graveside will be held at a later date in Christ Lutheran Cemetery, Camperdown. On-line condolences may be made by visiting www.corkumfuneralhome.ca This women lived a very long 99 years and I was very honored to know her, another angel has just returned to heaven. God bless you Gladys I will not forget you as I carry you in my heart always. Pixies

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Reality

Hello everyone, well the news is not good... I can no long do my job and I no longer have a job. The old saying is true things go from bad to worse in life, and when they do we always end up alone and face everything alone. Not sure where things will go next, but then no one does for sure in life. Pixies

Changes coming

Well this blog has certainly changed since my last post, like all things changes happen. Finally after over a year I am going to return to work and try doing my old duties again. For those of you who do not know I injured my hand in a fall at work in 2008, after receiving a steroid shot over a year ago, that went very bad I have been off ever since. This will be my final trial for this type of work, and really my hand still bothers me a lot. I am a person who needs to know for sure what will happen, so I must try for my own peace of mind. Like so many of us things happen that we can not control. How many times have I thought, "if only I could change that moment in time, what would my life be like now?" Of course there is no way of knowing but I do feel my life would be very different and better had I not fallen. I lost some of the movement of my hand, I will always have a level of pain. My ability to ride a bike, do crafts or any sports like activity is almost nil. My one saving grace is I can walk now in relative comfort provided I am aware of my surroundings. So in all this negative there is positive, I choose positive as the negative come far to easy in life. I am not sure what my future holds, where or what I will end up doing... but then again none of us do... past this moment in time. Many are bored or tired at their work right now wishing time forward... just remember, there may not always be something pleasant waiting at the end of this moment. I will try to keep my Blog updated now that it seems my life is about to change one way or another...and worse case scenario...keep me in mind if you know of a sedentary job opening lol Have a great day my friends, Pixies

Re: Flareups

I wanted to follow up my post from this morning, if you have not read it yet please read it before reading this one to make some sense of it. I went for my walk as planned this morning still feeling irritated, as I looked out the window in the sports center and saw the sun shining brightly and joyously in, I decided to use my energy as the sun does.

I closed my eyes and imagined the anger in me as a ball of red burning light, then I imagined beams of white light reaching inside of me from my head down, into my stomach and surround this burning ball of emotion. As the white light surrounded this red mass it began slowly lifting it from my body towards my head, once it reached my upper chest, and as my pace began to speed up from this energy the mass began to shrink.

The white light began to pull the red mass apart slowly into pieces and spread them to my arms, down to my legs and through every part of me until it was completely gone from within me.

What a wonderful feeling of relief and release as I raced around the track faster than I normally do. I am sure the other walkers thought I was trying to prove something when really I was just letting nature show me how to deal with something that did not feel good in my being.

As the energy was coursing through I finally began to calm and feel the normality return in my stride. What a wonderful way to deal with a bad feeling of irritation.
I hope my story gives some of you an idea how you can incorporate this idea into somethings you do if not walking.

God bless you all as you battle the eternal good VS evil, put into man in this emotional form.
Pixies

Flare ups

Good morning everyone,

I am sitting here this morning feeling irritated and aggravated for no apparent reason. I wondered about this feeling to try and find a reason for this unexpected mood, as I did so I looked out my window to see the morning sun in all of its glory, rising as a new and beautiful day begins.

I thought about all the articles I have read recently about solar flare ups more than normal this year... of course my mind matched that with my own emotional flare up this morning. Remembering a previous story I wrote here about nature still working on the evolution of humans, and the world we live in, I decided to just let it be as it is.

I wonder why we always look for a reason for our moods, when maybe for one day our minds and bodies don't need to make sense of every little thing in our life. After all, it is just me here so what is the harm... except for my blood pressure lol

Maybe we are to hard on ourselves trying to figure it out, I will soon go for my walk, maybe on this walk I will walk faster and father than normal... that can't be a bad thing.

The point I am trying to make, with myself as the example... let it be, if your the one feeling that way don't try to explain it, just let the mind have its way for a short time. I would not want this to go on for any amount of time, that would not be normal... or healthy... but just give yourself a break.

We are NOT a cut out pattern with our daily emotional planner in front of us to read. I am sure after some physical activity, I will be much better and will laugh when I remember this mood and realize... hey your just human and not perfect... just the way the creator planned it.

Have a great emotional day everyone,
Pixies

Understanding

Hello everyone,

No matter how old we are we are always learning lessons in life, recently I have learned a big one when it concerns friends. I always try to be there and help people in any way I can when they are going through a rough time in their life. Sometime just having someone to listen and understand is all we need, but sometimes that is not the case.

I just recently learned that in some cases it enables people to keep holding on and not deal with their issues because they keep giving their problems too you. One thing I know is we may not be responsible for what happens too us, but we are responsible in how we handle it... or in some cases do not deal with and accept it.

Only we can help ourselves in those steps forward, our family and friends can stand beside us but we must take the steps of free will. Staying in a bad situation and repeating the same mistakes over and over again only proves we have not moved forward.

Unfortunately people and the world do not wait forever for this too happen. After all the misery I went through it took me 2 years to completely move forward, but I made my first steps after a year to rid myself of as much of my problems as possible. I did seek the help of a professional in the terms of online counseling when I needed it.

This story is not about me but it is about many others out there who can not get past the pain and suffering they are enduring. I can only urge those of you have have not moved forward to seek the correct help. I can be a friend and I can listen but I can not change your life... only YOU can do that. Reach inside of yourself and look very hard, you will find the strength and the light to carry you forward.

Many tell me they can not take it anymore and have tried too end their life... I am very sorry to hear that, this is a desperate call for help... find that help... do not give up. If this is your test in life turn and face it head on... fight it talk about it and reach for those professional hands that are out there waiting to help you. I wish you God's speed in this help...

Understand I am not a therapist, I am merely a simple person with problems just like everyone else. My purpose is to let you know you are not alone in these problems we all face in different ways... Stop waiting for the help to find you... go out and find it and begin your healing and find your hope.... help is out there for those who look. A miracle no, a long slow path to recovering who you are or want to be YES.

For all who need to hear it...YOU ARE NOT ALONE

Until next time,
Pixies