Hello everyone, seems I always write later in the evening, maybe that is when my thoughts clear a bit.
Tonight however my thoughts are in turmoil, I made a friend on the internet two and a half years ago. We went through many troubles and toils together and shared many stories. In that friendship, like real life friends we had some problems but always seemed to start chatting again after some time passed.
Tonight however things were said and done, that not even time can erase from my memory. I am very upset as I am a person who takes people into my heart and try to keep them there. Maybe that is not good, but I choose to keep my heart open in this life...
Many times I closed my heart after so many horrible things happened, but that means the bad or evil whatever you prefer to call it wins! I refuse to let that happen, and I know there are very good people out there... and yes even bad people I must admit.
I will truly and surely miss this friend, but I know in my heart I can not change what happened no more than I can change tomorrow or yesterday. With tear filled eyes I said good bye as I wished my friend a good life in spite of what happened.
We must all look deep within ourselves at these times, and find that which makes us strong, and that which gives us courage and strength to go on. I do believe we all have a purpose, sometimes we can reach someone and make a big difference in their life...sometimes it does not matter what we say or do.
The point is always try, for every tear we shed, we may receive 1000 smiles in it's place...now that is what I call a real blessing. Hold on tight to those you can, let those go gracefully that we can not hold onto, and wish them luck in life.
This moves us one step closer to a greater understanding... and makes us victorious over that which tried to defeat us.
Until the next time my friends,
Pixies
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Hello again
Good evening my friends, I hope this post finds you well.
It has been brought to my attention that some people are having trouble leaving a comment on my blogs. If you are one of these people, click anonymous under your comment instead of trying to log into Google. If you like you can type your name under your comment, or leave it as anonymous.
I seem to be falling into a deeper thought pattern lately, I always was a thinker of sorts, but now it seems different. I listen to people and see their dilemma's. My thoughts again go to nature and how to solve some of these problems.
In nature everything is so balanced, only man breaks this delicate thing. Ever notice how a a foreign insect or plant is brought into another country to fix a problem.... only have two more spring up with that so called solution?
Seems we all act the same way, we think of a solution, put it into action and end up with more problems then when we started. Thinking is scarce these days as life does not permit us the time to think things through.
Learning to step aside and wait rather than to be pushed/forced, or mentally beaten into something. The best defense is to step back look at what you are or will do.
Ask yourself, why is it so important to rush into something... could it be because if we stop and think we may change our mind? Evaluation is a long slow tedious process, yet we human think we have mastered that by rushing and jumping to be the first, or just to have something over with.
Ask yourself one question... in the end of our lifetime when we look back at the mirror of truth we have created by our action, and if ask why did you do that.... will you really answer because you were in a hurry or someone else told you too?
Each of us will answer this question in our time, or so I believe. Now in this newer mind set I will begin asking more questions, and taking more time to look at the out come, rather then just getting it over with.
We are responsible for our own actions, we can not blame anyone for what we do... but we can see the effect and try to change the outcome.
Rise above the anger, fear and hatred when possible, and take that one more step closer to understand the meaning of, "We answer for ourselves only".
Seems simple in words but if you truly think about it, common sense is the easiest and hardest thing to understand...and even more difficult to find.
Until next time,
Pixies.
It has been brought to my attention that some people are having trouble leaving a comment on my blogs. If you are one of these people, click anonymous under your comment instead of trying to log into Google. If you like you can type your name under your comment, or leave it as anonymous.
I seem to be falling into a deeper thought pattern lately, I always was a thinker of sorts, but now it seems different. I listen to people and see their dilemma's. My thoughts again go to nature and how to solve some of these problems.
In nature everything is so balanced, only man breaks this delicate thing. Ever notice how a a foreign insect or plant is brought into another country to fix a problem.... only have two more spring up with that so called solution?
Seems we all act the same way, we think of a solution, put it into action and end up with more problems then when we started. Thinking is scarce these days as life does not permit us the time to think things through.
Learning to step aside and wait rather than to be pushed/forced, or mentally beaten into something. The best defense is to step back look at what you are or will do.
Ask yourself, why is it so important to rush into something... could it be because if we stop and think we may change our mind? Evaluation is a long slow tedious process, yet we human think we have mastered that by rushing and jumping to be the first, or just to have something over with.
Ask yourself one question... in the end of our lifetime when we look back at the mirror of truth we have created by our action, and if ask why did you do that.... will you really answer because you were in a hurry or someone else told you too?
Each of us will answer this question in our time, or so I believe. Now in this newer mind set I will begin asking more questions, and taking more time to look at the out come, rather then just getting it over with.
We are responsible for our own actions, we can not blame anyone for what we do... but we can see the effect and try to change the outcome.
Rise above the anger, fear and hatred when possible, and take that one more step closer to understand the meaning of, "We answer for ourselves only".
Seems simple in words but if you truly think about it, common sense is the easiest and hardest thing to understand...and even more difficult to find.
Until next time,
Pixies.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Long time again
It has been a long time now since my last post, I find the more things change the more they stay the same. Nothing much has changed for me and yet everything has changed.
Three years ago I fell at work and injured my right hand/wrist and arm, I now find out it is permanent after exhausting all possibilities on my own. Now today I found out my injury is worsening as far as pain goes, and now I will be looking into nerve blocks. But as upset as I am about that how can I remain in this thought pattern when others suffer far worse than I.
I have a friend who lost a kidney to cancer 2 years ago, now the cancer is back, and on top of that he just had is big toe removed from complications. So in this light I should not complain, as others surely must come first in our thoughts.
The other day I saw a tree as I walked. Half of this tree was nearly dead, decaying bark surrounding what was once a magnificent tree. And the thought dawned onto me how this tree was not finished, life sprang all around the now gray bark, green flourished on it's other branches and the leaves danced in the wind.
The tree seemed to focused on the good left in it, and puts forth what seeds it can for the future. These thoughts crossed my mind as I walked and blocked the pain that riddled my hand.
Upon further thought I considered the tree in depth, even when this tree meet its end, it would be surrounded by the life it helped to give birth too. And as it crumbled to the earth that grew it, yet again it would fertilize the next generation of this beautiful creation.
In life we become so focused on that which has changed or worsened, we no longer see that which we can still give. In this thought it helps me to remember all I have to give, rather than that I will no long do.
In this I see the potential of positive thinking, given by the very nature that created us all. The trick is to see this when we are depressed or sad and left in our own misery.
Many time now my thoughts are drifting back to the natural state as I use to see things. I do hope it continues and I can share more of these thoughts with anyone who wishes to read them. I will try to move forward once again in life and find the answers that are there but we do not see.
And for those wondering yes I am still single, I have dated and met some nice people and became friends with some. I will keep an open mind as I walk forward, hope for everything and wish for the best lol.
Until next time Pixies.
Three years ago I fell at work and injured my right hand/wrist and arm, I now find out it is permanent after exhausting all possibilities on my own. Now today I found out my injury is worsening as far as pain goes, and now I will be looking into nerve blocks. But as upset as I am about that how can I remain in this thought pattern when others suffer far worse than I.
I have a friend who lost a kidney to cancer 2 years ago, now the cancer is back, and on top of that he just had is big toe removed from complications. So in this light I should not complain, as others surely must come first in our thoughts.
The other day I saw a tree as I walked. Half of this tree was nearly dead, decaying bark surrounding what was once a magnificent tree. And the thought dawned onto me how this tree was not finished, life sprang all around the now gray bark, green flourished on it's other branches and the leaves danced in the wind.
The tree seemed to focused on the good left in it, and puts forth what seeds it can for the future. These thoughts crossed my mind as I walked and blocked the pain that riddled my hand.
Upon further thought I considered the tree in depth, even when this tree meet its end, it would be surrounded by the life it helped to give birth too. And as it crumbled to the earth that grew it, yet again it would fertilize the next generation of this beautiful creation.
In life we become so focused on that which has changed or worsened, we no longer see that which we can still give. In this thought it helps me to remember all I have to give, rather than that I will no long do.
In this I see the potential of positive thinking, given by the very nature that created us all. The trick is to see this when we are depressed or sad and left in our own misery.
Many time now my thoughts are drifting back to the natural state as I use to see things. I do hope it continues and I can share more of these thoughts with anyone who wishes to read them. I will try to move forward once again in life and find the answers that are there but we do not see.
And for those wondering yes I am still single, I have dated and met some nice people and became friends with some. I will keep an open mind as I walk forward, hope for everything and wish for the best lol.
Until next time Pixies.
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