Walking Again

Hello Friends,

I am finally walking again and it feels very good. It was extremely windy and cool tonight, but I bundled up and away I went. Now as I look out the window I see an almost full moon shinning down upon us. Last night was the first time I heard the frogs cocking in the swamp out back. It is a calming an soothing sound for me as it lures me into a peaceful nights sleep.

I feel the effects of nature coming back to me finally as I have missed that wondrous feeling of awe. As I walked tonight I couldn't help but think of the wind as the breath of life. Although holding me back it also made me think of our inner system as it struggles to keep the needed breath within us.


As in a struggle with life there are pauses within the on slot of resistance. An within the calm, a reflection of life itself breaths and enjoys the reprieve. But to soon the resistance returns forcing us to kick in our heels and push ourselves forward as if being guided into life once more.

Complicated yes, needed yes.
Pixies

Another Day

Hello everyone,

Another day has begun and life moves on.
I had a good weekend, my friend and I got along very well. Still moving slowly as I want to take my time and experience some new and old things along the way.

The disappointing part was I got sick towards the end of last week, my ear duct as they call it is partially blocked causing swelling of my jaw and an aching in the ear as well as an inner ear infection I suspect. So just before my friend came down my mouth breaks out into fever blisters and I am not feeling the greatest!!

But not put out a bit he came anyway and we did all we wanted to do lol Have to tell you anyone who don't mind looking at those horrible looking things is a plus in my book.

Can't help but notice how spring is slowly creeping in as a snail on vacation. But soon the warmth of the sum with radiate into us and bring about a change in habits and activities. One I am looking forward to is walking again, seems every time I want to start something happens I don't get to go.

I am still having ear and jaw issues and the cold and dampness makes it hurt, so I will wait again for a while before I start...soon need to as something happened to my washer/dryer set...seems everything I wash and wear is shrinking haha...and no can't be me putting on weight lol.

Until next time do take care,
Pixies

New beginning?

Hello everyone,

I am hoping the last of my divorce papers are now signed, waiting for them to return.
I am happy again as I am starting to date again, I have been talking to someone for a few weeks now. We met for the first time last Saturday and we plan on getting together again this weekend.

It is nice having something to look forward to now and I do like him very much. We are taking it slow and putting no label on to it. I am finally more content in my life, I had to let some family go to keep my peace, but I have made my peace with that.

I am going to try and enjoy my life a bit and see what it was meant to be like. For those of you still going through a break up or planning on leaving, think it through and try to plan it first. I was forced out and had no choice, and if I can give one piece of advice to you, it would be...don't be the one to leave even if the police tell you too.

They told me I had to go, I was in shock from being choked and watching blood on my families face after he attacked them. If my mind would have been working I could have told them to make him go as he became violent, and I know now they would have had to.

I can not change all that happened to me, but I can put the word out to anyone who will listen. The police that was here almost forced me to go using their authority to intimidate me. I urge you to stand your ground if you are not at fault, let the guilty be the ones to leave, and let us have what little peace would remain, and we all know that is not much, but when in the middle of hell...it means a lot.

Take care until next time,
Pixies