Hello Friends,
I am finally walking again and it feels very good. It was extremely windy and cool tonight, but I bundled up and away I went. Now as I look out the window I see an almost full moon shinning down upon us. Last night was the first time I heard the frogs cocking in the swamp out back. It is a calming an soothing sound for me as it lures me into a peaceful nights sleep.
I feel the effects of nature coming back to me finally as I have missed that wondrous feeling of awe. As I walked tonight I couldn't help but think of the wind as the breath of life. Although holding me back it also made me think of our inner system as it struggles to keep the needed breath within us.
As in a struggle with life there are pauses within the on slot of resistance. An within the calm, a reflection of life itself breaths and enjoys the reprieve. But to soon the resistance returns forcing us to kick in our heels and push ourselves forward as if being guided into life once more.
Complicated yes, needed yes.
Pixies
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Another Day
Hello everyone,
Another day has begun and life moves on.
I had a good weekend, my friend and I got along very well. Still moving slowly as I want to take my time and experience some new and old things along the way.
The disappointing part was I got sick towards the end of last week, my ear duct as they call it is partially blocked causing swelling of my jaw and an aching in the ear as well as an inner ear infection I suspect. So just before my friend came down my mouth breaks out into fever blisters and I am not feeling the greatest!!
But not put out a bit he came anyway and we did all we wanted to do lol Have to tell you anyone who don't mind looking at those horrible looking things is a plus in my book.
Can't help but notice how spring is slowly creeping in as a snail on vacation. But soon the warmth of the sum with radiate into us and bring about a change in habits and activities. One I am looking forward to is walking again, seems every time I want to start something happens I don't get to go.
I am still having ear and jaw issues and the cold and dampness makes it hurt, so I will wait again for a while before I start...soon need to as something happened to my washer/dryer set...seems everything I wash and wear is shrinking haha...and no can't be me putting on weight lol.
Until next time do take care,
Pixies
Another day has begun and life moves on.
I had a good weekend, my friend and I got along very well. Still moving slowly as I want to take my time and experience some new and old things along the way.
The disappointing part was I got sick towards the end of last week, my ear duct as they call it is partially blocked causing swelling of my jaw and an aching in the ear as well as an inner ear infection I suspect. So just before my friend came down my mouth breaks out into fever blisters and I am not feeling the greatest!!
But not put out a bit he came anyway and we did all we wanted to do lol Have to tell you anyone who don't mind looking at those horrible looking things is a plus in my book.
Can't help but notice how spring is slowly creeping in as a snail on vacation. But soon the warmth of the sum with radiate into us and bring about a change in habits and activities. One I am looking forward to is walking again, seems every time I want to start something happens I don't get to go.
I am still having ear and jaw issues and the cold and dampness makes it hurt, so I will wait again for a while before I start...soon need to as something happened to my washer/dryer set...seems everything I wash and wear is shrinking haha...and no can't be me putting on weight lol.
Until next time do take care,
Pixies
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
New beginning?
Hello everyone,
I am hoping the last of my divorce papers are now signed, waiting for them to return.
I am happy again as I am starting to date again, I have been talking to someone for a few weeks now. We met for the first time last Saturday and we plan on getting together again this weekend.
It is nice having something to look forward to now and I do like him very much. We are taking it slow and putting no label on to it. I am finally more content in my life, I had to let some family go to keep my peace, but I have made my peace with that.
I am going to try and enjoy my life a bit and see what it was meant to be like. For those of you still going through a break up or planning on leaving, think it through and try to plan it first. I was forced out and had no choice, and if I can give one piece of advice to you, it would be...don't be the one to leave even if the police tell you too.
They told me I had to go, I was in shock from being choked and watching blood on my families face after he attacked them. If my mind would have been working I could have told them to make him go as he became violent, and I know now they would have had to.
I can not change all that happened to me, but I can put the word out to anyone who will listen. The police that was here almost forced me to go using their authority to intimidate me. I urge you to stand your ground if you are not at fault, let the guilty be the ones to leave, and let us have what little peace would remain, and we all know that is not much, but when in the middle of hell...it means a lot.
Take care until next time,
Pixies
I am hoping the last of my divorce papers are now signed, waiting for them to return.
I am happy again as I am starting to date again, I have been talking to someone for a few weeks now. We met for the first time last Saturday and we plan on getting together again this weekend.
It is nice having something to look forward to now and I do like him very much. We are taking it slow and putting no label on to it. I am finally more content in my life, I had to let some family go to keep my peace, but I have made my peace with that.
I am going to try and enjoy my life a bit and see what it was meant to be like. For those of you still going through a break up or planning on leaving, think it through and try to plan it first. I was forced out and had no choice, and if I can give one piece of advice to you, it would be...don't be the one to leave even if the police tell you too.
They told me I had to go, I was in shock from being choked and watching blood on my families face after he attacked them. If my mind would have been working I could have told them to make him go as he became violent, and I know now they would have had to.
I can not change all that happened to me, but I can put the word out to anyone who will listen. The police that was here almost forced me to go using their authority to intimidate me. I urge you to stand your ground if you are not at fault, let the guilty be the ones to leave, and let us have what little peace would remain, and we all know that is not much, but when in the middle of hell...it means a lot.
Take care until next time,
Pixies
Monday, March 16, 2009
Almost spring
Hello been a while,
I am sitting in the sun this morning at my computer enjoying a nice cup of coffee.
While the sun sinks in and finds my soul to warm with it with wonderful rays of calmness, sending me reflecting over the last couple of years in my life.
It seems now that things are calm and safe again, and I finally have back most of what was taken from me, the one thing that has disappeared is my friends.
Seems life has a way of balancing things out with wants and needs.
My best friend is still around of course and happy in her life. I am not saying she doesn't have problems, but she is at least in a happy place to deal with them. But slowly I am making new friends and working to keep busy.
Spring will soon be here and I will resume my walks and I am hoping the wonderful experiences I encountered with nature a couple years ago. I really miss those walks and the great insights I would receive while walking.
And for those who was there when I was going through my ordeal, and are wondering about my family, for the most part things are ok except for one.
It seems me and my mother will never see eye to eye about what happened to both of us during my turmoil. I have excepted the differences are just to great between us, and we will remain apart and distant from each other even though we only live a few hundred feet apart.
I know some will say, but she is your mother, but only so much water can wash under and over the bridge before it washes out...it has washed out. I am upset by this and hurt also, but I have left the anger of it behind and decided to move forward in life as I always seem to walk alone for the most part. But I will say my sister and brothers have been a great help to me and so far we are keeping thing separate from the issue at home.
I am also ready to date again, I have been out a few times and enjoyed it. But no special someone to make me want to try another relationship. I am talking to people through this medium also and who knows what may happen one day. For now I have the freedom to enjoy my single life style...and take all the closet space lol
My divorce should be complete by the end of this month so I can close forever this chapter of my life. My ex's brother and wife are coming to stay with me a bit this summer and I am looking forward to having them here for a while. Great to have company again, and I am very glad this divorce did not interfere with our friendship as we have gone through a lot over the years as a family.
I am seriously considering writing about my life sort of a biography, but I also know if I do I would have to keep it to myself as many would be upset with my view of the details as I lived them. But who knows, the thought is there and for now so is the time to begin one.
Well my coffee cup is empty and the sun is moving away from my window, telling me to get started with my day and my plans. I am hoping I still have a few readers left out there.
Until the next time,
Pixies
I am sitting in the sun this morning at my computer enjoying a nice cup of coffee.
While the sun sinks in and finds my soul to warm with it with wonderful rays of calmness, sending me reflecting over the last couple of years in my life.
It seems now that things are calm and safe again, and I finally have back most of what was taken from me, the one thing that has disappeared is my friends.
Seems life has a way of balancing things out with wants and needs.
My best friend is still around of course and happy in her life. I am not saying she doesn't have problems, but she is at least in a happy place to deal with them. But slowly I am making new friends and working to keep busy.
Spring will soon be here and I will resume my walks and I am hoping the wonderful experiences I encountered with nature a couple years ago. I really miss those walks and the great insights I would receive while walking.
And for those who was there when I was going through my ordeal, and are wondering about my family, for the most part things are ok except for one.
It seems me and my mother will never see eye to eye about what happened to both of us during my turmoil. I have excepted the differences are just to great between us, and we will remain apart and distant from each other even though we only live a few hundred feet apart.
I know some will say, but she is your mother, but only so much water can wash under and over the bridge before it washes out...it has washed out. I am upset by this and hurt also, but I have left the anger of it behind and decided to move forward in life as I always seem to walk alone for the most part. But I will say my sister and brothers have been a great help to me and so far we are keeping thing separate from the issue at home.
I am also ready to date again, I have been out a few times and enjoyed it. But no special someone to make me want to try another relationship. I am talking to people through this medium also and who knows what may happen one day. For now I have the freedom to enjoy my single life style...and take all the closet space lol
My divorce should be complete by the end of this month so I can close forever this chapter of my life. My ex's brother and wife are coming to stay with me a bit this summer and I am looking forward to having them here for a while. Great to have company again, and I am very glad this divorce did not interfere with our friendship as we have gone through a lot over the years as a family.
I am seriously considering writing about my life sort of a biography, but I also know if I do I would have to keep it to myself as many would be upset with my view of the details as I lived them. But who knows, the thought is there and for now so is the time to begin one.
Well my coffee cup is empty and the sun is moving away from my window, telling me to get started with my day and my plans. I am hoping I still have a few readers left out there.
Until the next time,
Pixies
Monday, February 16, 2009
2009
Happy belated New Year!!
it has been a long time since my last post and much has happened. I am getting ready for work this morning so I will keep it short for now.
As I told you I am back in my home and a settlement has be reached. I am not divorced yet but that is all that is left of my old life now. I am still single as well. I did date a couple of people but just friends as it turned out, which is good we all need friends.
I am content now by myself and enjoying some peace and quiet in my life for a nice change. I have meet so many wonderful people on the web I am grateful for that. There are also a lot of not so nice people on the web...but is this not life in reality as well.
Take care for now and hope to post again soon,
Pixies:)
it has been a long time since my last post and much has happened. I am getting ready for work this morning so I will keep it short for now.
As I told you I am back in my home and a settlement has be reached. I am not divorced yet but that is all that is left of my old life now. I am still single as well. I did date a couple of people but just friends as it turned out, which is good we all need friends.
I am content now by myself and enjoying some peace and quiet in my life for a nice change. I have meet so many wonderful people on the web I am grateful for that. There are also a lot of not so nice people on the web...but is this not life in reality as well.
Take care for now and hope to post again soon,
Pixies:)
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