Unsettled

Hello everyone, I am so unsettled in mind and thought lately I have not written much. As all people I take my turn in being uneasy, confused and unnerved. My hand is growing increasingly more painful making not only work difficult even with shorter hours, but everyday life as well. Tonight I thought how ironic, I have to sit and think about doing simple everyday things and ask myself is it worth it? I know my hand will drive me crazy afterwards. I know I should not complain as so many have it worse, and I am grateful I can move it at all. I know I cannot change the past and prevent it from happening, I cannot seem to find a way to fix it. This puts me in a dilemma, I have to work too survive... but how long can I continue to endure this daily torture.... more so what will come when that day arrives. We all worry about different things in out lives, I wanted to share this day and my emotions with you so you know your not alone in your pain and misery. We all suffer either physically or mentally, and we can all become emotional roller coaster by times. Tomorrow is a new day and maybe a good one... the cup is half full, not half empty, so I will continue to fight to see life that way.... ice cream helps too lol None of us know what lies ahead of us, but we must keep taking those steps... one at a time, if we fall back then maybe we will take two forward and catch up. Walk with me my friends through the good and bad, for none of us are immune to life and its lessons... the trick is to get past those bad days... even if it takes ice cream to do it :) Take care always, Pixies

Unseen

Hello everyone, I am here and elsewhere looking learning living, making mistake and being human. Like everyone I have a sad story of life and learning. I am only beginning to realize what spirituality means. Once a few years ago I came so close to the very essence of nature it was almost unreal. I could sense what was going on, I could feel what I could not see, I could almost touch what was beyond the visual site as we know it. Lessons being shown through natural objects as acorns, flower, pollen and gentle breezes. But as all things I lost that wonderful spiritual peaceful fulfillment. I felt I was about to step through an unseen door when life came charging through and knocked me back into a harsh reality. So many things happening and no time to continue looking and striving for the unseen. A traumatic divorce, losing everything including once thought friends and drifting alone in a vast sea of misery left me closed. I think so many time about trying to return to that wonderful spiritual place but somehow I have link that place with the forbidden. I wonder if all things happened because I was growing ever closer to something so wonderful and all knowing that other forces put a crashing halt to my journey. I hope one day to try and reach that level of awareness again. First I must over come that fear and try to let go of those horrible memories that shape us physically and remain mentally. As the sun warms us and I sit with it upon my face, and close my eyes I know it is still there waiting. The light enters my being and enlightens my thoughts as it warms me, encourages me to move forward. One day I am sure it will be, but for now I must be patient and wait as it does not feel the time to continue that jouney…. yet. Keep smiling, Pixies