Hello again

It has been a very long time and a very long journey. I have moved in and out of a settled mode for over a year now, I think I am finally settled for now. I feel an old familiar and lost feeling beginning to return to me, one I have missed dearly. That feeling is contentment coming from within me, a feeling of warmth and light, oh how I have missed it.

And for those who wonder I am still alone, I was dating someone but now we are friends, as this is what we feel for each other. But a few months ago as I sat at my desk in the morning, and as the sun was rising to light the darkness and bring warmth, a friend returned to me.

My friend of light, sounds strange... but once you know this feeling it can only be described like this. As the sun brought rays of light through my window it touched me with its brightness... I was on cam at the time with a very old and dear friend of mine. He is 70 years of age and lives in India. As we chatted about life and philosophy he was beginning to witness what I felt.

I began to tell him what I was feeling as the sun warmed me, it began its journey to my soul to fill me with the warmth and light of love and understanding. As he bore witness to this he ask to remain and watch silently, I agreed. It was so long since this feeling of pure light had been felt and enjoyed, I thought I had lost it forever.

I closed my eyes and allowed myself to be lost in this wonderful pure feeling, I felt it enlighten my whole being and travel to every part of me and journey back to my head and finally release its energy through my eyes, as it slowly faded and left me calm and relaxed and humbled in life.

Once my thoughts returned I remembered my friend on cam watching this, he was still there and sat in deep thought as I acknowledged him again. I am not sure if he was more excited or me by this happening lol

I am hoping to begin new this spring, return or repair not sure which word fits the best. But there is something to nature to learn from, who is trying to teach us something... I want to learn and be a student of nature and find that which has been lost. Follow me on my journey ... should be interesting :)

Bye for now,
Pixies