Changes

Hello everyone,

Wow talk about changes that have come since my last post. I am back in my home again...yes I am, and legally! What a mess I had to clean here, it was terrible. But now it is shinny and clean again and looking more like home than it ever did! For the first time in a year I am truly happy. Now once the paper work is done and divorce papers signed I will be as happy as anyone dare be lol

I want to thank my best friend Kelly for her support though all my troubles. Without her help I am sure things would have turned out much worse than anyone would have thought. She is my family in the best sense of the word. Her life has improved too and she is on a journey of education, and self exploration.

My family has helped me a lot in getting settled in here and to get things working again. Most things are in need of repair, but that is minor for now. My ex did a lot of damage to my personal belongings, but he will pay for that through the courts. So I am happy to say things are much better.

That doesn't mean it is over yet, this I am sure of. The first night I was here my ex showed up and tried to force his way in. The police said because his lawyer didn't contact him and tell him I was here, so they wouldn't charge him, even though he broke the screen door handle. But he will pay for that to through the court and it will come out of his share once again.

But for now I am happy and content, and to me he doesn't exists any more, and even without the papers, I am now a free spirit who feels at home and at peace. I wish this peace will surround all who have read my story. One day I will fill in all the information I have left out on purpose until this is completely over. I can tell you, it will be a good read for sure, as long as you are not the one living it.

Good night my friends, God bless
Pixie:)

Dating Again

Hello everyone,



I have finally decided it is time to start dating again. I have meet some very interesting people and enjoyed meeting them. No one in particular yet, but at least now I know I am ready to look. I think I was waiting until everything was settled with my ex, seems that may be a while yet, so I am moving on. I am planing action that will hopefully end this complicated issue over the land. That is what is holding everything up. I want my freedom and everything settle by summers end and I am going to make that happen. But in the mean time, if Mr. Right walks around the corner...I am certainly going to say hello to him, lol.

Until next time,
Pixie:)

Happy Mothers Day

I would like to wish all mother's a very Happy mothers day. I am not a mom, but I do know the hard work and dedication it takes to be a good caring mom. So for you I write this poem of thanks from all the children of the world:)

Mothers

For all the times you said no when needed,
even though at the time we felt it wrong and pleaded.

For all the times we made you sit up,
when your young you don't realize this stuff.

For all the band aids and tears you wiped,
for changing all those diapers that was not so nice.

For pushing us to study for a better life than some had...
you are our mother and for that we are grateful and glad.

Thank you, for all you do:)
Pixie:)

Poem

Hello everyone,

I am still here and about, nothing much has changed in my circumstances. But I have figured out that I am ready to start looking for a possible friend shall I say lol. No, I have not found anyone yet but I have meet some interesting people and realized that I will not loose anything but looking, and will gain some friends by doing so. A new friend has inspired me to write a poem, and I am going to share it with all of you. I hope you enjoy it and maybe find a little inspiration within it.

May 3, 08

Stormy Dreams

Across a barren sea, wave lash out at all that be,
Rougher waters on the way,
hold on tight the fierce winds do say.

Once the storm unleashes and ends its fury,
the water returns to a beauty in glory.

A dangerous journey we all must face,
different circumstance, decide each ones fate.

Some will give way to grief,
to much of a burden for them to meet.

Others will triumph and make their way,
to a happier place and sail away.

To the island of dreams so clear, tropical and true,
Were only happiness waits for you.

So set your course as best you can,
victory will be given by destiny as designed and planned.

Ann Gallant

Take care until next time,
Pixies:)

Just checking in

Hello,

I am not sure anyone still checks my page, but just encase anyone does I will drop a note, and say hi. Things are still in limbo, but I do believe they are about to move. It is very hard to try and be optimistic when everything stays at a stand still for long periods of time.

Yesterday as I sat at my computer and stared out the window, I almost came on and wrote a post. I watched the billions and billions of snow flakes slowly fallen on an existing blanket of white. I contemplated those flakes, and as I did so, those flakes became all the misery in the world...it seemed like so much pain was falling it was unmeasurable in size and emotion.

This realization reminded me I am not alone in my unhappiness, so many have different pains and struggles they must also deal with. And as I watched and contemplated more I also noticed something else. As these never ending flakes fell, the sun would peak out for a brief time, and melt some of the fallen flakes. Once the sun disappeared more flakes covered those that had vanished.

Again I thought about this process, and concluded, that someones pain was just melted away. Lots more will experience the pain, but some will find relief as the pain moves on in turn. The brief melting is what will get us through our storms of confusion. Some how this little story will hopefully help someone out there who needs to see those snow flakes for what they are. That person will then understand what will happen when the sun shines, and melts those same worries away. More worries will come later, nothing we do can stop that, but when the sun melts the present, at least then we might get a slight glimpse of a possible future.

Until next time friends,
Pixies:)

Still here

Hello everyone,

Just wanted to leave a quick note to let you know I am still here.
I am just waiting for the world to stop spinning so fast so I can steady myself.
I am sure it will all end soon...at least I hope...7 months and still waitng for good luck and peace of mind!

Time will take its time,
Pixies

Changes

Hello again,

Well I guess some of you might have been waiting for some of the writing I talked about in my last post...well things happen. It would seem the calm is over again for a while.

Lots of things have come up in all area of my like making it impossible for the creativity to come forth. How long this one will last is anyone's guess, we will just have to wait and see what happens. Until things get a little better I won't be writing much.

Until then,
Pixie